RIPPLES My Debut Poetry Collection
RIPPLES My Debut Poetry Collection
On any other day this would of course be a vitally important occasion but i feel that with the current political unrest both here and in other countries when it comes to LGBT rights then i think its even more important to write about it.Being homophobic and sticking to those beliefs doesn’t serve anyone well the homaphic individual, the gay person, the child learning about relationships in school. What homophobic people lack in my view is a decent education on the subject, knowledge is power is a phrase that springs to mind here! There is such a huge strain on the health organisations across the globe in dealing with patience who present with illnesses directly coming from stress and depression because of homophobic abuse, or fear of coming out therefore living totally miserable lives.Not to mention support needed by families who have gone through the tragic loss of a loved one due to suicide just because they are gay.Most people in my opinion who have a homophobic personality need just as much support in re educating themselves to the truths behind all the myths they have been fed which leads them to be homophobic in the first place. Im reminded here of the day i first came out to my own mother the very first thing she said to me after telling her was “you know you will gets aids dont you” This was a response purely based on the badly delivered tv advertisements campaign she had recently seen talking about the Aids epedemic in the 80’s.Non of her beliefs around gay men or lesbians was actually based on facts she had discovered for herself.sadly her reaction hurt me badly and i was forced to go reluctantly back into the closet until many years later once i had moved out of the family home and was living independently .It was when living independantly i began to attend events and that’s when I finally accepted my sexuality for myself and realised how important it was for me to be visable as a lesbian.When i reflect on lots of famous people i grew up with who came out i had such a warm familier feeling towards them a kind of knowing sence. I had in my head that George Micheal was gay at the peak of Whams career. Over the next few years after living alone, and exploring the bigger picture i began to research gay history, the important figures in this and the political movements for gay rights which again made me realise how much suffering had happened and how far we had come in my own lifetime, this then gave me an even bigger sence of pride in being a lesbian. I was no longer in situations whereby my sexuality came into conversation and i was almost apologetic for telling people i was a lesbian to the point where i can recall a meeting at an arts event where i had to introduce myself and the work i do and i was very clear to point out i was a lesbian and i actually said thats who i am and if you dont like it…i dont care!. As a disabled person i have been on the receiving end of more bullying because of my disability than most most of you have had hot dinners so i have grown up knowing that i am very different to the average person on the street so actually the time it took me to accept for myself that i was gay wasnt all that long.I finally had `a terminology, a reason why i had certain thoughts and feelings growing up.I get exasperated by people who call being gay a life style choice like its the same as what hair colour you want, what clothes you wear and what you do for a living is all a choice, the colour of anyones skin, whether you are disabled at birth isn’t a life style choice, your born that way, lesbianism isn’t a fashion statement a way in with the in crowd its who i am. Women in general over the history of the world have had so many battles for equality we live still in such a male dominant society its as if women get forgotten about theres so much about our lives today which is still not justified, like equal pay and being stereotyped in the media. Yes i agree that being a lesbian is only one part of being a women but with everything we have faced and fought for to have an equal place in society and with dangerous and scary times ahead with political changes happening globally all our campaigning and sacrifices are at stake. Its a scary world we live in when the leader of the most influential nation on the planet publicly mocks a disabled person asking questions during an election campaign and who has absolutely no respect for women or people from the LGBT community . We need more widespread education we need more understanding and empathy and tolerance for all kinds of communities and we need more lesbian role models from all walks of life to get the message across that its ok to be a lesbian yes its a huge pat of our identity but its not the whole of a person and that we can do anything and be anything we want. I am proud of my difference as a disabled woman and i am proud to be a lesbian i am not angry with anyone who may be homophobic rather i feel sad they have not had an opportunity to re educate themselves against the untruths they have picked up in their lives so far. I am here to stay i am a women and i am a lesbian and proud of everything i am and what i stand for.
Hello and thank you for reading my latest blog. despite not posting much recently that doesn’t mean i have been taking things easy..infact ive been very busy behind the scenes. although taking a short break from finishing my third novel i have been taking some time out to do some professional development, a refresher so to speak. I have been working through steps to raise my profile. You may have noticed that the look of my website is different, this has been a big project and i can only exstend my sincere gratitude to everyone who has been helping me do this…you know who you are!
so what’s been happening? I am delighted to have been selected to participate in the first DIVA Literary Festival taking place in Birmingham in November.I will be in the company of Literary royalty with fellow authors/writers such as Kiki Archer Val McDermid VG Lee and hot properties of the moment Helen Oakleigh Kate Bennett and a whole host of other amazing female writers.The event is being hosted by non other than Heather Peace…post twin births.The whole weekend promises to be a wonderful occasion and i am deeply honoured to be selected to participate so early into my career. I have applied to perform in the poetry platform at this’d years Lfest and i am waiting to find out if my application has been successful.
i have been dipping my toe into wider ponds and finding groups to join on social media.I recently joined an arts group based in scotland and i was delighted to participate in my first poetry open mic performance.This was a special victory as it was happening at a venue quite far away so i was unable to attend in person, but we were able to work together to arrange for me to perform via skype, demonstrating that more disabled performers can take part in events like this as long as the organisers are happy to think outside the box to make it money accessible.
i have begun a few new lifestyle rituals which have proved to be so useful to my working levels. I am able to write something however small every day i have increased the amount of poems i am writing a week and feel like i have found a real niche with my poetry.
i am hoping to secure a few more dates for appearances in the coming weeks and months and will let you all know as soon as i hear anything.
i feel like i have a renewed sence of energy to take things further so expect lots of news and activity online. With so many external influences affecting our sence of well being and so many political changes and unrest i leave you with this small thought, change is scary, but sometimes its so worth taking a leap of faith and go with it..to quote a line from a sweet kids moves used by the family of an adorable family who’s son is vey sick…keep swimming , the future is only just beginning.
I passionately believe in giving everyone from the Disability LGBT community a voice.eryone else I aim to give an honest eductaion and fun insight into our lives.
I began to write approximately four years ago after realising the gap in the market for disabled LGBT artists. It occurred to me that there was a lack of artists with high profiles due to no other role models. To me we need to raise the profile and visibility of disabled LGBT people and encourage more artists to promote their talents whilst educating the rest of society. I have no formal writing qualifications just over forty years life experience as a disabled woman. I grew up feeling like I was not being heard or encouraged to develop and celebrate any ability or talents .i express my inner most feelings through poetry and use my life experiences into my authors work.
To date I have two novels published and I write poems on a daily basis, I hope soon to release my first poetry anthology book.
I passionately believe in giving everyone from the Disability LGBT community a voice and to everyone else an honest education and fun insight into our lives!
I am delighted to be selected to participate in the first DIVA Literary Festival
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This weekend I was lucky enough to appear on the indie Author Panel at LFest 2016.It would double up as the official Launch of my second Novel Needle In A Haystack, exerts from the diary of Charlie Duke.On Saturday morning I sat nervously perched ontop of the raised platform hoping not to fall off the back, looking around at the women arriving into the Arts Tent, our venue for the panel. I had spent some time earlier chatting to the other authors getting to know them, we seemed to quickly bond and I felt very comfortable around them.i was initially nervous about my book as my target audience for is are teenagers so reading to an adult audience was in my mind a risk, however I felt my book received a great deal of interest . So now almost a week on from the panel I am busy sending out copies of my new book after receiving orders directly from people who attended Lfest and I am putting together a marketing plan. Al the support I am receiving is so appreciated. If you would like to buy a copy of Needle In A Haystack please log onto Amazon.
Soon to be released My Debut poetry collection Ripples
Ripples My Debut poetry collection
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I am delighted to announce my new novel Needle In A Haystack is now published in paperback.It will take a awhile to get it all registered available from Amazon in Paperback and for Kindle so please bare with us.In the meantime if you would like to place an order please contact me via email, or Facebook and we can arrange this for you.This second book has been such a labour of love and I am thrilled to be releasing it and reading from it at this years LFest in two weeks time.For further information please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org
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I was recently reminded of an album recorded by my all time favourite singing artist, which was a collection of covers from Canadian singer/song writers from over the years..my idol being kid Lang, a Canadian artist herself.At the same time she was elevated a new album which featured collaborations with two other singers, all new material which they had written together.This got me thinking about how we as artists use so many different influences to create our work recognising that whilst all new work is a gift we bring but that also subconsciously each offering we share is without question loaded with so many different influences…if this was not the case then each of us would have an extremely short career indeed.I am in ore of those out there who continue to work after many years in their feild and still keep producing high quality pieces whether that’s novels, paintings, music, poetry, sculpture photography or anything else that comes under the umbreller of “Art”. I always pay great attention when I see an artist asked the question”what inspires you” hanging on their every word in the answer .
As I was joyfully listening to my favourite track from this album I had a rush of reminders of so many things that evoke certain emotions in me and inspire me some of which I feel like sharing with you.In the first place the song I was listening to was A Case Of You written by Joni Mitchell but I was listening to the kid Lang version.I love the use of the image of being so in love with someone that if that love was turned into wine and you drank the whole case…you still couldn’t get enough of that person…just gorgeous!!! This of course is my own interpretation of the meaning to the song and I acknowledge that others will have another interpretation this is just mine. In addition to the sentiment to the song I’m totally captivated by the tone of Kd’s voice and I liken it to a melted chocolate soft velvet image to describe why I like it so much.But my appreciation of her doesn’t stop at the voice I have enormous respect for the way she holds her own as an artist in a very competitive business.despite not regularly being in the mainstream top 40 or featured artist regularly seen on MTV she sticks to her own confidence and self belief that she has a valid place out there and appreciates grately the world wide fan based she has developed over a 30 year career.Many of her songs have enormous meaning to me from an LGBTnperspective and many of the songs I have adopted as personal anthems I play when I need an extra boost of confidence .I have read many books and articles/ interviews and documentaries about who she is as a person and my respect for her is endless. This brings me onto another artist based in UK who has been in the business just as long and has been labelled as being very similar to Kd’s..this of course is Horse McDonald. I first came across her work through her involvement with the first L Project single “it does get better “. I have had the pleasure of being introduced to more of her music over the past year, seen her live at least three times and attended a workshop she lead in Scotland.I have gained an understanding of her history in the business and studied her vocal ability and developed huge respect for her ability as a singer.Unlike Kd’s she is not signed to a huge multi national record label but has a huge loyal following and gains more support each year .Again her self believe and refusals to go down the same route as many an artist and do her own thing is both refreshing and totally inspirational to me and like Kd’s many of her songs have personal meaning to me from an LGBT perspective and from a more basic subject as personal battles and staying strong at difficult times.Watching her live is as close to an on the go workshop for vocal techniques that you can possibly imagine and she never fails to amaze me just how much physical effort she puts into each song. Her closeness to her fans is a breath of Fresh air .I have even decided that one of her songs will be played at my own wedding as it sums up my relationship with my partner so perfectly. My inspiration doesn’t stop there it’s well documented that I write about issues surrounding my disability and living in a world where this can create issues, and also I write about LGBT issues not forgetting the individuals who have made so many sacrifices to make living our lives today so much easer and those who create environments for people like myself to have a voice and a place to go and be part of a community who accept me for who I am . Many basic things also inspire me such as watching a beautiful dance performance…my memory of dance has not left me completely and I’m very grateful for that that.I recently saw a painting in a shop window that I fell in love with it was of a female dancer in a pose I stared at it for a good ten minutes and all kinds of thoughts feelings and emotions came to me . I was lost in its beauty for a short period but it was an inspiritaional moment…Through dance I have gained a deep fascination with the human form, I love sculptures of figures, and sketches and paintings of naked bodies…not from a sexual point of view either.Images showing various landscapes also fill me with joy and I love to be anywhere near natural water either a lake, sea or river bank there’s something so spiritually inspiring for me about the sea.
In summing up I think you will agree that there are many ingredients to what inspires me and I actively seek out new forms of inspiration. Long may the search continue for those I mention in this blog and long may it continue to encourage me to keep writing.